In any discussion about autism, especially with parents of newly diagnosed children or friends/family who have no direct experience with autism, the subjects of cure and prevention will inevitably come up. "Can you fix him?" "What went wrong?" "I'm trying to get pregnant, is there anything I can do to make sure my kid isn't autistic?"
The answers to these questions depend quite a bit on whom you ask, and also when you ask them. In one of my early posts to this blog, I wrote the following:
"We can give your child a shot now, and when he wakes up tomorrow he will no longer be autistic. Would you like us to give him the shot?"In (R)evolutionary parenting, MOM-NOS describes how her feelings have changed toward her son's autism over time:
Pose this question to a group of parents of children just diagnosed with autism, and chances are you would get a very quick, passionate, and nearly unanimous response of YES!!! Ask this question to those parents of older children, though, and the responses would likely be more hesitant, not quite as passionate, and definitely not unanimous.
When Bud was initially diagnosed, I viewed autism as "other" - an interloper, a roadblock, an obstacle. I saw it as something to take care of and to get rid of as quickly and as efficiently as possible.The other key thing we must consider as our kids grow older is that they will develop opinions of their own about their 'condition' in life. If you were to present me today with the cure question I asked above, I would be unable to answer. Not because I'm undecided about what I would do, but because I think at this point (15 years old) it is no longer my decision alone to make. Sure, as a parent I would expect to have some input, and would do my best to make sure my son understood the implications of both options.
Later, I began to see autism as a part of Bud (and not apart from him). I saw it as a small part, but a significant part.
But as I came to understand Bud better, I learned that his autism is not...one small part of him. It infuses every part of him and it shapes who he is in this world. It makes some things terribly difficult for him. It makes other things laughably easy.
If you had asked me the question 13 years ago, I would have had to decide. Not knowing then what I know now, I have no doubt that I would have quickly and unreservedly said, "Yes." But if I had known then what I know now, what would my answer have been?
In many ways, asking the cure question at the initial diagnosis (assuming it was early enough) is the same as 'preventing' autism in the child; if the autism is removed before it has a chance to "infuse every part of him and it shapes who he is in this world," then the autism will have been prevented from being a defining part of the child. Is prevention a 'bad' thing? Again, it depends on whom you ask.
If you are talking about pre-natal testing, the discussion will range from "with this test you can determine if your child will be autistic or not and decide whether or not you want to have him" to "this is the first step to eugenics and wiping out of autistics." I'm choosing not to engage in this discussion in this post, though I'm sure it will come up in the comments and in later posts.
If, however, you are talking about prevention through a "shot" like I mentioned above (I know, I know, this is not the way it would probably work - please bear with me), how would you answer the question. What factors would you consider?
I can't help but go back to the questions in my mind that prompted me to write To hear or not to hear. What do I want life for my son to be like? What options do I want him to have? What will he think of my decision when he gets old enough to understand what I have done?
If I had a child who was born deaf and was told by the doctors that through surgery my child would be able to hear, but the longer I waited the harder it would be for my child to transition from a non-hearing world to a hearing world, I must admit that I wouldn't hesitate any longer than it took me to figure out how to pay for it. Why should I think any differently about autism?
By saying I would prevent autism at an early age if I could, I'm not saying that I don't value my child as he is now. I can't imagine these past 15 years without him, and it is safe to say that my career path, my wife's career path, and my other son's life would be completely different had we not lived in Autismland all this time. But at the same time, I have no doubt that life without autism would have been just as enjoyable and rewarding, yet filled with the more 'typical' challenges that parents of teenage boys experience.
Parenting is hard, mainly because it is a long-term investment of time and effort (and money, of course) with a high degree of uncertainty about the final outcome. The things I do today will have impacts years from now that I could never imagine. I see one of main roles as a parent as the one who sets the path along which my children will begin their journey in life. Along with that, it is my job to help them understand the path they are on, the future paths that lie before them, and an understanding of how to navigate the world.
Or, as MOM-NOS says in (R)evolutionary parenting:
I will try to help him build the foundations that will serve him best [as an autistic person in a largely neurotypical world] - foundations of relationship, flexible thinking, broadband communication, mindfulness. And then, ultimately, I will need to step aside and let him use the things he's learned.Parenting is hard, and every parent approaches the challenge in different ways. I don't like the way some people parent their children, and I am in awe at how others make it look so easy. This applies to both "typical" parents and autism parents. But it is not my place, nor anyone else's I believe, to tell another parent how to raise their children. (And no, I don't believe anyone else should tell me how to be a parent either.)
Or not use them.
My goal, I suppose, is to help Bud have options, to let him know that his life need not be driven by fear and limitations, nor by the prejudices of small-minded people.
In the end, parents answer only to themselves (obvious legal/moral exceptions aside) and, when they get older, their children. I'll leave it to them to judge.
tagged as: Autism, Parenting